The Step Child

I've come to the conclusion of why it's so awkward at work...it's because I am like the step child. I kinda eased my way into this job without really anyone knowing and just appeared one day. There was no 9 month prep for people to mentally prep and I jumped right passed infancy (being a student) to a full fledged adult (a tutor) in a week's time frame. Currently I am sitting in the parking lot in my full uniform getting ready to go to a meeting I heard via the grapevine. Am I supposed to go or was my lack of knowledge intentional? Am I a slacker if I don't show up? I guess let the awkwardness begin and I'll update you shortly.